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'here's to your health!'
I live with anxiety, depression, fear and anger.I also have chronic pain from a spinal injury.
Thankfully I have a dog as a companion. However she is the only one I can trust. It does get lonely. Meeting and being around others is hard as most of them are happier than me.
I can't relate to them and visa versa. Lately I have had to push myself to so things as am sad. I was in two car accidents too and have a head injury.
This causes memory and concentration problems too. On the up side, I am self sufficient. Mostly I listen to Christian music as it is calming.
I also do mindfulness coloring, play chess online, watch TV once in awhile, have plants,write,attend support groups on phone, walk my dog, care for her, pray,eat tastey meals, as just got pizza tonight.
The trick is to do something if down, not waddle in self pity, to feel better. As per Recovery Inc., support group, 'move a muscle and change a thought', 'resoluteness of the muscles overcomes the self defeatist babble of the brain'.
This group is based on book Mental Health Through Mental Will Training written by Dr. Abraham Low, for his patients. Another group is Emotions Anonymous, based on 12 steps.
Say powerless over emotions. Faith based teaching for symptoms is helpful too. Example: replace fear with faith, sadness with 'joy comes in the morning', 'don't let the sun go down on your anger', 'be anxious for nothing.'.
DBT skills such as mindfulness, distress tolerance with meditation, taking a vacation if overstressed like going to sleep.
Cognitive skills is another. Replace negative insecure frightened thoughts that cause negative emotions, with secure positive ones.
If use some or all of these daily, you will feel better. It is a choice. Through action, even if don't want to, you feel better. Do the thing you hate or fear and gain the most confidence, comfort comes by bearing discomfort, showing can do it.
We are sensitive so we Need to be less so and not let the outside environs effect our inner. People can be rude. We Need to let them go or are tossed about like fish in a tide.
It is important to protect yourself. Try to get with supportive, kind people. Don't reveal yourself too soon until know is safe. Some will never understand or even try
Like to call us crazy, stupid. Mean. Distance self.Stigma is out there. Why I don't work regular job. Write for money and do vending sometimes. Something.
I would like to get together with others for lunch, coffee in Capital area, NY so not so alone. Get back to me if interested. Also comment here if can relate to topic. Thanks.
'I made this!' -ann reilly, designer
, company, Ann Reilly, artist, vendor. Was in front of Langley's, a mechanic not in operation so didn't pay fee. Only made $18 after expenses so wasn't paying owner of Spindles, who ran show, $30. He shook me down for money but didn't give in. He said was part of event.
He says how I can't just be there, how other vendors paid. The difference between them and me is I am poor, have no car, help, shlep over alone. Live 2 doors down. On my St. Many do what did when event. He Said next time they not going to let me be in it and why didn't I stand in front of my building. Made nothing last time is why. Money made towards my accupuncture costs as not covered by insurance. Joint problems, on disability. He begrudged me little made.
Mean time he's making good money off his noisy bar. I have to tolerate him, it, noisy music and his rowdy drunken patrons coming home all hours. Drop glasses and beer bottles on ground outside too. Ugh. Cuts both ways babe.
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