Still here..

While I appreciate your comments to my posts, I would ask firstly that they pertain to topic and are not spam in nature. Thanks! Have found a place to live in E. Durham but have to wait for new landlords to send in paper work to section 8 and then they need to come out to see place before they release funds to supplement my rent there. Had to pay rent in full where am so broke now,even though have section 8 which really blows.

Listened to 'Occupy Wall st.' talk on radio today and see similarities with my situation when they speak of the trickle down effect of Wall street's capitalism and corporations on the little guy like me and how the movement is growing in momentum as more and more people across the US make the connection with what's going on there and with all of us and the recession and lay offs,evictions,foreclosures and the new face of poverty. I can definitely relate as am being threatened with eviction myself though my landlord doesn't want to have to go to court to get me out as costs money to get sheriff to come and out the process can be a lengthy one with no money interim. She has elected to wait on me to leave and bullied me for the full rent instead which though not thrilled with is better than what faced earlier with her as have a roof over my head. What about you? How is this effecting you if it is at all?

Rain

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Rain While we need it, We don't need it every day, But, it's been pouring daily, from where I sit, Watching the drops of water fall and trees sway, With the wind blowing their branches and leaves falling, Instead of for rain, I pray for a sunny day, Listening to birds sing, Feeling the warmth of the sun, Not the coolness of the clouds in the sky, Then I can get something done, Outside, tidying up, I'll try, For now the streets are soaked with rain, buckets of the stuff have filled my flower pots, It has now become a pain, As sun too is needed for fruit,crops,trees and forget me nots, So now instead of a rain dance, I will wish for a sunny sky, As I watch the animals prance, From my window by and by, Yes, it's high time for some sun, I long for it's warmth on my face, and the summer fun, It's vibrant glow on this place, That not is wet and dull, The streets resemble a ghost town, Empty and the sounds are at a lull, No activity can be seen in this now sleepy town, The rain seems to have washed away the people as well, As watered the ground and soil, The air is heavy with a damp smell, Soon, men will toil, Under the hot sun's rays, On roofs,fields,streets, They will seem as if in a daze, While others complain of the heat, And wish that it would rain.

new posts at other url..

no spam,please as deleted. Thanks! look for new posts here as blogger forwards my blog to other url on dropaholics if I don't post daIly. guess how they keep blogosphere current and cleaned up as many haven't posted anything new in years and should delete their blogs. I transferred some posts from old blog,you can't read as page disappears as can see,to new one called ,welcome to Closer to sane. Again,sorry for the inconvenience and pain in the neck.

Still moving..

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Still looking for a new home. I am on top of the list for section 8 which could supplement my rent where am and have an appointment with them in Catskill on Tuesday. wish me luck. Had offered to take the empty but now rented 1 BR cottage with garage,next door,put things in garage out of sight,affordabley but landlord refused. Yet she complains of my things outside. I can't afford to pay anyone to remove it to a storage site or pay for one so there it stays. despite saying she would let me stay if paid her which did,back due money,she still wants me out and is threatening court action. I tried and it is hopeless with this unreasonable woman(akama,ana bergen,saugerties,ny Tantra Products/Tantra Saugerties, NY. (845) 247 9010. Ray & Akama Bergen: the Hero Goddess Institute In order to keep our marriages secure most of us relate as if love and freedom ...what a bunch of crap. she's about as spiritual and sexy as a snake in heels.) who is spiteful and a bully. All can say to new tenant is good luck,will need it with her. she rehabbed their place to get tenant but be assured she will do nothing once in as is her m.o. she is horrid. she says i bad mouth her on net like here and on craigslist but have to vent somewhere no don't I? if complain her a bout disrepair of place,she retaliates which is illegal but she has the upper hand and uses it. now she doesn't even mow my grass which I pay for in rent. sher threatened to keep my security if I moved so wouldn't have anything to give who is spiteful and a bully(why held rest of money to move with,starting eviction from her in response). All can say to new tenant is good luck,will need it new landlord. seems best to go to court as can't find a place but one up the pike in herkimer county but not mine yet as had to fill out and mail them more forms. will speak to judge and tell my side of story..prefer to find place that takes section 8 as after year can move anywhere in US with it and not stuck in HUD,senior/disabled housing with gossipy,busy body neighbors as was my experience there in past,losing my section 8,having to wait 5 years to get again,ugh.. hard to believe these people offer,therapy,help to anyone as they are so creepy,greedy and nonspiritual in every way and downright ugly. what a scam. see their bogus web site now. he may be a therapist as claims but what qualifies her i ask to give any advice?! goddess my foot!

memorial service..

While I appreciate your comments to my posts, I would ask firstly that they pertain to topic and are not spam in nature. Thanks! Mom's memorial service in Activity room of nursing home in Catskill today. all who knew her are welcome. thanks.

Do not stand at my grave and weep..

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In Memorium (to my mom)

Do Not Stand At My Grave and Weep

Do not stand at my grave and weep I am not there. I do not sleep. I am a thousand winds that blow. I am the diamond glints on snow. I am the sunlight on ripened grain. I am the gentle autumn rain. When you awaken in the morning's hush I am the swift uplifting rush Of quiet birds in circled flight. I am the soft stars that shine at night. Do not stand at my grave and cry; I am not there, I did not die.

  by elizabeth frye,1932.

having a memorial service for her next week at nursing home in Catskill she died at.. Keep my family and her in your prayers. thanks.

moving to..

While I appreciate your comments to my posts, I would ask firstly that they pertain to topic and are not spam in nature. Thanks! Moving to Herkimer county. Will be happy to live in a decent place after living in a dump two years in cairo,NY. Won't miss the thieves stealing my yard sale items,220 bucks worth,the gossipers,backstabbing and community apathy,lack of compassion,caring for each other,at all. good bye.

Street Fest tomorrow..

While I appreciate your comments to my posts, I would ask firstly that they pertain to topic and are not spam in nature. Thanks! in Cairo,NY. It will be put on by the historical society. Prohibition,temperance movement and a throwback to the 20's theme will be the fashion tomorrow being Saturday. We will have an auction at Mason's hall,a Speak easy at Gallagher's banquet hall in the evening,vendors with food and arts and crafts,music,dancing from 11 AM-9PM. Come visit. Don't forget to come to my yard,moving sale. I am across from hardware store. I have a bit of everything(clothes,games,stuffed animals,knick na cks,house wares,dvds,cds,vhs's,computer gadgets, books,glassware,china,old bottles,furniture,jewelry,toys,vintage collectibles,etc. for $1+-5,mostly but a few things a bit more like a guitar for $35 with case and a color printer,copier,scanner for but $39. NEW!) in the back on my property,not in the front. Go up the drive to the cottage. Hope to see you there!(my sale hours are 9AM-8PM,depending on how long runs and how many people attend.

Mom died this morning of stomach cancer...

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Your prayers are welcomed and inclusion of her name mentioned in a mass. She suffered towards the end,couldn't eat,drink,swallow,was wasting away..sad. Was for the best that she left but I will miss her greatly as love her so. So used to talking,laughing with her.

Troubled?

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If you struggle with emotional,mental problems as I and many have for years,these links will be a gift to you. They are from my favorite Christian preachers,Charles Stanley and joyce meyer.  They are dynamic speakers and offer FREE   videos and reading material unlike others who are out for your money like Joel Osteen and his Big Calvary church, the largest one in the USA. I guarantee these videos and these sites will lift your mood and lead you in a positi ve direction to heal what ails you.  Often times it is a troubled past,namely hurts from loved ones such as family ,friends,peers.  They may hae said,done things that hurt our feelings,self worth and ha e left us scarred til this day.  many believe the lies they were told that they are 'no good' and don't live their best lies but instead are unhappy,doing drugs,drink,are promiscuous,in an unhealthy relationship and so on.. is this what we are here for? no, i don't think so. i believe we are here to enjoy our lives,find our divine purpose and live it serving others and the Lord,making a  difference in this world and being remembered by the lives we have changed and touched. 

Recovery inc. is a self help support group for those with mental problems who struggle with troubling emotions of fear,anger,anxiety,panic.  They meet across the US,in CN and Ireland currently. I attend a weekend meeting  by teleconference from my home on Sundays, 3:30 PM EST.  phone numb er is on the web site and code to punch in to jo9in meeting.  in ti me get the book out of the library 'Mental health Through Will Training'  by Dr. Abraham Low,written in the 1930's for his patients for them to review when not in session with hi m.  The book as quotes you can cling to whe n in symptoms so you c an cope such as 'move a muscle,change a thought','we are a capable lot but we paralyze oursel ves with fear','inner approval is more important than outer approal','symptoms are to be bravely faced,hum bly born and tolerated' and so on. I strongly recommend this program to anyone afflicted with these problems to prevent frequent hospitalizations,suicide,incarceration,homelessness,divorc e,domestic violence and so on.  It changes lies and it's free!