Do not stand at my grave and weep..

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In Memorium (to my mom)

Do Not Stand At My Grave and Weep

Do not stand at my grave and weep I am not there. I do not sleep. I am a thousand winds that blow. I am the diamond glints on snow. I am the sunlight on ripened grain. I am the gentle autumn rain. When you awaken in the morning's hush I am the swift uplifting rush Of quiet birds in circled flight. I am the soft stars that shine at night. Do not stand at my grave and cry; I am not there, I did not die.

  by elizabeth frye,1932.

having a memorial service for her next week at nursing home in Catskill she died at.. Keep my family and her in your prayers. thanks.

Alone, again Naturally

Remember that song? Well, I do an I hated it then and still do! Another tear jerker was 'The DAy the music Died' -Don McLean or better yet 'All By Myself!" don't want to be..all by myself, anymore! (revamped version by Celine Dion, ha!) Anyway..I am alone, partly by choice as I am choosey as to whom I befriend and spend time with.. Of late I am feeling the magnitude of what that means and is and it kind of scares and saddens me. Granted I am not unique in my experience as many other people live alone ansd some prefer or love it! in fact, you can live alone but still enjoy a great social life and have a terrific network of dear friends. Not my case though. I don't call or reach out as I just feel 'in the way' as they have their own family,friends and lives and appear diinterested in me and wanting to know me better or be around me.

Technically, mind you, I am not physically alone as I live with 3 hairy beasts! yes..4 cats and a dog but..when it comes to human beings, there I would say, I would be lacking. I really don't have anyone I could truly say that I could depend on or who would be there for me in a pinch. Yes I have my elderly mom and and an old boyfriend. By that I mean, an "ex", although come to think of it, he is old too!! He lurks in the shadows of my life and visits a couple of times a week, usually to grubs off me both for food and money,as he doesn't use a budget and is perpetually broke,ugh! He will say he will be coming over but will go to sleep instead and not call so..I wouldn't exactly call him a rock of dependability.

I am pre or perimenepausal as they say as just got my 'friend' again after months of not getting it as I thought I was threw with that and I was fine about it. Now I am bleeding alot and depressive due to hormones. Getting better though but perhaps is why I felt sad and introspective all of a sudden.

I have neighbors who saying "hi" is a stretch, let alone asking for anything so for the most part, I don't bother to speak to them. Many people pass by as I live near a park in a farm community upstate in NY but, they stare at me and look in my windows and go on their merry way.

How bout you? Are you alone? lonely? What do you do to cope with your feelings?

Another great article on being alone can be found here on 'Open SAlon', a blog site for writers. Check it out! AND AS ALWAYS,'here's to your health!'

Brain Injury and YOU!

my article post on 'Open Salon', a writer's blog network, on brain injury, 'Brain Injury & You!'was one of the editor's picks, today! I was happy about this recognition of my writing and was glad I could share my own personal experience with brain injury as a survivor to raise awareness.

Perhaps, this small gift today was what I needed as my life has been less than ok lately to be honest here if i may! I guess I could use some good news. Why? Well..I am going through a bit of sleep deprivation lately as two of my 4 cats have been fighting at night, keeping me up. Then my other cat regardless gets me up at 6AM sharp by crying from the next room and if I don't get up, he begins to scratch the furniture like a bratty kid! he knows better guys. I honestly think he does it intentionally. Anyway, I yell both at night and in he morning and in the day these days at these animals and my dog is the 'Peaace Pal' of the house so she gets up barking when she hears the hissing as she has a zero tolerance for b.s. and fighting. I am thinking of leaving them all here and booking a flight to some where. Only one problem, I'm broke! This makes me think of a post for another day on my pet blog'Animals LARGE and small'"What to do when YOUR PETS take over your house!". When i figure it out I'll let you know. Til then I have one of my cats, 'the offender', in the back room for the second time today! He is the new cat who chases my 'shy' but hissy one into another room when she hisses at him and then they fight.

All these different personalities living under one roof is beginning to grate on my nerves. More to share another day. Don't worry guys. i'll be ok. i'm strong. Show me some love. You know what to do! (hint) drop,comment,email,trade links,give me somehing to review,or buy something! thanks!