Latest Cairo,NY news....Police chief arrested for..

No spam. Thanks! Thanks Chris. Just what this little messed up town needed. Isn't it bad enough that it is known as a drug town with it's junkies and dealers?! Also is the armpit ogf Greene county with it's high unemployment,lack of job opportunities,uneducated citizens just lounging in front of the tv on the government dole all day. How disgraceful. Tons of slumlords too as have reported. This used to be a nice area where tourists used to vacation in the day if you can even imagine it. You can't now as businesses don't even want to open their doors here as noone buys anything from them except drugs,cigarettes,liquor. Now if you wanted to open a pot stand and sell your plants in your yard,this would be the town for you! If you are looking to come some place to eat or vacation,skip Cairo is all can say. Even with new library,they took out a million dollar loan for with money didn't have and the new expensive hannaford coming,sorry but true. SOO glad to be gone from here as yeh used to exist here.

Alone, again Naturally

Remember that song? Well, I do an I hated it then and still do! Another tear jerker was 'The DAy the music Died' -Don McLean or better yet 'All By Myself!" don't want to be..all by myself, anymore! (revamped version by Celine Dion, ha!) Anyway..I am alone, partly by choice as I am choosey as to whom I befriend and spend time with.. Of late I am feeling the magnitude of what that means and is and it kind of scares and saddens me. Granted I am not unique in my experience as many other people live alone ansd some prefer or love it! in fact, you can live alone but still enjoy a great social life and have a terrific network of dear friends. Not my case though. I don't call or reach out as I just feel 'in the way' as they have their own family,friends and lives and appear diinterested in me and wanting to know me better or be around me.

Technically, mind you, I am not physically alone as I live with 3 hairy beasts! yes..4 cats and a dog but..when it comes to human beings, there I would say, I would be lacking. I really don't have anyone I could truly say that I could depend on or who would be there for me in a pinch. Yes I have my elderly mom and and an old boyfriend. By that I mean, an "ex", although come to think of it, he is old too!! He lurks in the shadows of my life and visits a couple of times a week, usually to grubs off me both for food and money,as he doesn't use a budget and is perpetually broke,ugh! He will say he will be coming over but will go to sleep instead and not call so..I wouldn't exactly call him a rock of dependability.

I am pre or perimenepausal as they say as just got my 'friend' again after months of not getting it as I thought I was threw with that and I was fine about it. Now I am bleeding alot and depressive due to hormones. Getting better though but perhaps is why I felt sad and introspective all of a sudden.

I have neighbors who saying "hi" is a stretch, let alone asking for anything so for the most part, I don't bother to speak to them. Many people pass by as I live near a park in a farm community upstate in NY but, they stare at me and look in my windows and go on their merry way.

How bout you? Are you alone? lonely? What do you do to cope with your feelings?

Another great article on being alone can be found here on 'Open SAlon', a blog site for writers. Check it out! AND AS ALWAYS,'here's to your health!'

I am sooo depressed lately

Is the weather ....we've had nothing but rain for days now. Now I know how they feel in the islands when the monsoons come.

My schedule is out of wack and my sleep patterns too as I haven't been able to walk to places. Instead of walking to supermarket I do some shopping in town when I visit my friend. I pay twice as much this way but atleast I get some food. Not what I would normally eat tho as can't get vegetables or fruit and can't really afford to live like this. I didn't even do the laundry yet as always raining so a pain as clothes would get wet coming home even with plastic bag over cart.

I am supposed to get a sun light but am still waiting as an agency is supposed to fund this. I am coping tho as did pay all my bills this month and still have some clean clothes.

I think by Thursday is supposed to be better.